then onto a whole bunch of craziness. i am nervous to visit mark. seems like i barely even know the kid anymore. he makes comments like i'm afraid we're drifting-which freaks me out. but the we actually talk and it seems normal. i'm also afraid that my endurance has gone to shit because i havent been able to workout or even walk around for a while. hiking is going to kick my ass.
to add to those uneasy feelings, what the hell am i gonna do after that? dad suggested cod yesterday. i guess i could take some spanish classes or something. grad school? job? internship? live at home? move far away? health insurance? god, i dont feel ready to make any kind of decision. i like being young and being able to go in a which direction but i fear making a wrong choice. dont really wanna live a home but have no urge to get an apt in the naperville area.
i wish i could just travel. spend my life seeing new landscapes, scaling rocks, meeting interesting people, learning about different cultures.
if anyone out there has any suggestions of what i should do with my life, please let me know. i already ruled out running away to join a freak show and running in the upcomming elections.